paper route was the best night of my life. i love their energy and the sights and the sound of their bass, as cliche as it sounds, was literally in sync with my heart. i'm so happy.
and it only adds to my happiness by being able to finally talk to you. to have what we used to have and see you looking at me and talking about me again. i love hearing about brennan and devin and blake. i love listening to the stories that i know you don't openly share with anyone else. i hope you will keep this up, because this disappointment that will amount from you dropping me after paper route and my cd case wounds and our jokes and pictures will prevent me from ever wanting to be around you again.
the way you looked when you dropped me off, i didn't know what to do. you had this little smile on your face and i imagined that was how janna would see you when she saw us talking. i'm happy for everything you've done and that you still find me worth your time.
the next way you lean over like that and look at me and tell me that you enjoyed my company, i might just break my face smiling.

thank you, cam.
also, paper route: i will love you forever and always. your drums, synthesizers, glockenspiels, and guitars will always be as fucking wonderful as they were that night. i can't get the images out of my head and i'm never going to. i'm going to remember everything about that night and i am SO HAPPY.