i don't know who this is for anymore.

"nothing's good, nothing's right, but i love you."
"i get carried away... i get carried away, please warm the blood inside my veins."
"'in years when we get older, will you be someone colder?'"
"if you gave me a chance to love you, could I come back and love you?"
"i'd love to see you hurt like i do."
"this year has moved in unexpected ways, where the pillow should reach your head,
there's a sorrow that comes instead and stays with you until the morning light."
"don't you break my heart, don't you break my heart again."
"maybe it's all the right dreams at the wrong times, whoa. maybe it's better to start a whole new life, whoa."
"every mistake turned to some sort of yearning, a heart that was hollow has filled up with meaning."
"there's something about the quiet snow reminds me i should know."
"i want to be your heart that breaks, i want to be your hiding place, i want to be your one solution, i just got no execution."
"i want you more than anything, just as you're leaving."
"this is the last time i'm gonna let you down."
"i've been awakening all along."
"i know i have to make it somehow."
"there's a part of me always wishing for something that i can't have."
"how i need you, don't you walk away this time."

but i'm so fucking glad you gave them to me.
live, love, live, love, live, love.
jt, andy, chad, gavin.

i miss you.